If He Had Been With Me Collector's Edition

If He Had Been With Me Collector’s Edition by Laura Nowlin is a deeply affecting YA contemporary romance about first love, growing up, and the painful weight of choices you can’t undo. It’s the kind of book that pulls you in with quiet intensity, then keeps you thinking long after you’ve turned the last page.

Autumn and Finn were once inseparable, the easy sort of friends who feel permanent—until, somehow, they drift. Now Autumn has a boyfriend and a solid circle, while Finn has become effortlessly popular. Yet every encounter sparks the same unsettling question: what if they’d never let that closeness slip away?

Perfect for readers who like emotional young adult fiction, best friends-to-lovers tension, and stories about regret, friendship, and the moments that reshape a life. This collector’s edition also features luxe finishes and a special author Q&A.

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